“If nothing ever changed, there’d be no butterflies.”
— Unknown

That quote has always been one of my favorites. 

Change is often uncomfortable. It’s usually messy. And it’s almost always misunderstood—especially by those who want you to stay the same for their own comfort. But if we avoided change, if we resisted growth, if we stayed in the cocoon forever… we’d never fly. We’d never become. There would be no butterflies.

Since founding my company, Girl Power Alliance, in 2020, I’ve witnessed a LOT of change. Personally. Professionally. Spiritually. And while I wouldn’t trade any of it—let me be honest—it hasn’t always been easy.

In fact, the truth? Change often walks hand in hand with disappointment.

Five Years of Becoming

Looking back over the last five years, I am overwhelmed by what God has done—not just in me, but in so many of us in the community. I’ve seen lives changed, marriages restored, generational traumas broken, and chains fall off like dust in the wind. I’ve watched women deepen their intimacy with Jesus, embrace boldness in their leadership, and awaken to who they really are.

I’ve seen women go from feeling disqualified to being powerfully commissioned. And much of that transformation happened inside our Holy Spirit-breathed academies—spaces I still believe are unlike anything else in the world.

Those classes aren’t just educational. They’re encounters. You don’t just learn—you shift. The Holy Spirit meets people in those Zoom rooms. I’ve seen it too many times to count.

But that transformation didn’t come without a cost.

When You Lead, You Will Be Misunderstood

Starting a faith-forward company comes with a target. Especially when you don’t fit inside the small, rigid boxes that people try to put “Christian leaders” in.

Over the past five years, I’ve said yes to serving in ways most people will never see. I’ve covered costs, waived fees, given money, and supported people privately—not because I had to, but because I was led by the Holy Spirit. I didn’t do it for applause; I didn’t tell others. I didn’t post about it. I just obeyed. But here’s what I’ve learned: when you stop carrying what was never yours to carry, some people will get angry. When you set boundaries, the entitled will cry betrayal. And heartbreakingly, much of that backlash has come from within the community of Believers.

There’s a culture of entitlement and victimhood that has taken root in the body of Christ. A belief that others should endlessly pour out while they passively receive. But that’s not Kingdom. And that kind of disappointment? It’s not from God. It’s from people who’ve placed expectations on others they’ve never placed on themselves.

Obedience to God will sometimes disappoint people. And I’ve made peace with that.

When Expectations Collide with Reality

You know what I’ve learned? Most people expect more of you than they require of themselves. They’ll place weight on your shoulders they won’t carry in their own lives.

It’s a bitter truth: People get disappointed when you stop filling their cup for them. But at some point, it’s not about what I can do for you. It’s about what you’re willing to do with what you’ve been given.

I’ve poured out. I’ve built three companies from scratch—with no outside help, no investors, no trust fund safety net. Just grit, faith, obedience, and hours nobody saw.

I’ve hosted training calls. Coached leaders. Led academies. Built courses. Written curriculum. Prayed for people. Taken calls when I was exhausted. Showed up when no one knew what it cost.

And yet—when I needed to pull back, to protect my peace, to create margin in my life so I could sustain the call God gave me—I was criticized. Told “I’ve changed or the company has changed.” That I “wasn’t available” like before.

But here’s the truth: I had to change. God required me to.

This Is a Business—Built in the Kingdom

Let me be very clear—Kingdom Alliance is a business. It was created to generate income, serve the Kingdom, and multiply impact. And yes, I’m a bold believer. Yes, God uses KA to build His Kingdom. And yes, we operate by faith and use Kingdom math—where God multiplies.

But that doesn’t mean we’re not a business. It doesn’t mean I don’t have to make tough decisions. It doesn’t mean people are entitled to more than what’s been offered freely.

I started with nothing. No backing. No handouts. Every success, every system, every transformation story—it came through hard work and obedience.

KA Is Changing—For the Better

In this new season, we’ve made some awesome shifts. Our coaching division has moved outside of the KA membership, which means more people than ever can experience these life-changing transformations. And while I fought this move at first, once I surrendered, I knew it was God’s plan.

We also launched KTC—Kingdom Travel Club, which is already changing lives and only just getting started. It’s expanding our reach, opening new doors, and creating new ways for people to earn, save, and explore the world.

And me? I’m changing too.

I’m not willing to run myself into the ground to meet everyone’s expectations. I’m not interested in being everything to everyone. I’m committed to being obedient to God—and sustainable for the long haul.

If that disappoints people, I’ve made peace with that.

Because people-pleasing was never my calling. Kingdom leadership is.

Truth Hurts. But It Also Heals.

Truth often stings. Disappointment often lingers. But both are necessary for growth. Some truths I’ve had to accept:

• You can love people deeply and still have to say no.
  
  
• You can lead with integrity and still be misunderstood.
  
  
• You can give generously and still be accused of not doing enough.
  
  
• You can build something beautiful—and still lose people who don’t understand the cost.
  
  

But the truth also brings healing. Because when you stop striving to meet every demand, you make space to hear God again. When you stop carrying what’s not yours, you start walking lighter. When you release the expectations of others, you finally breathe.

And in that space—God does His best work.

Looking Inward

For anyone who’s ever felt disappointed that I didn’t do more, give more, or show up more—I invite you to look inward. I say that with love. Seek the Lord. Ask Him what He’s requiring of you in this season.

KA was never meant to be a rescue boat for those unwilling to row. It’s a movement of empowered people—a community that grows together, gives together, builds together.

We are not perfect. But we are real. And we never stop moving forward.

What’s Next?

The next season in Kingdom Alliance is one I’m more excited about than ever. There’s clarity and supernatural provision ahead. Our coaching programs are expanding. Our community is deepening. Our reach is multiplying.

I believe we’re just getting started.

And I believe that every moment of disappointment, every hard truth, every stretch of obedience—it’s been preparation for what’s coming next.

This is the season of butterflies.

Of beauty rising from the breaking.

Of strength born in the surrender.

Of impact that multiplies when we walk in truth.

Final Words

Thank you for seeing beyond the surface. For choosing growth. For investing in your future and allowing God to shape your journey through this space.

To those who’ve moved on because you felt you were no longer receiving what you expected—I bless you. Truly. May you walk in peace, purpose, and alignment with what God has for you next. And may He also open your eyes to the value of rising up and taking ownership of your own growth.

And to those just discovering Kingdom Alliance—welcome. You’ve found a place that isn’t perfect, but it’s real. It’s Spirit-led. It’s rooted in truth, transformation, and a belief that growth is holy, leadership is servanthood, and God never wastes anything.

Let disappointment refine you, not define you. Let truth guide you, even when it stretches you. And let change shape you—because it’s the only path to becoming.

After all, what would the world be like without any butterflies?